Hello, how are you guys its been a while! i hope everything is good :)

back in September i was worried how the current semester will end since i’m in level 6 and the subjects getting deeper and harder and all.. now its nearly coming to an end! to be honest i enjoyed this semester more than the last one.. tho it was loaded with projects, homeworks and presentations but maybe because my Schedule is kinda comfortable and my teachers are nice too! also my scores are good in all subjects so i’m not stressed out because of the finals x”D ( usually i turn into zombie during finals ).. today was the last day i go to college before my finals, now i have 2 weeks vacation and i should spend them studying but i know it’ll be wasted on Dramas and Anime :P

since this year is ending i want to talk a little about myself.. i gotta say its definitely not my year at all.. too many upside downs happened to me personally.. pressure, stress, loneliness, frustration, anger and depression nothing worked right for me! there was a time where i thought seriously of abandoning everything and run away but in the end i stood still and faced it all.. it was a painful experience indeed but i learned a lot from it.. ah the bitterness of losing.. being misunderstood.. and hurting your own pride.. the frustration i’ve been through!!..

i dunno how to express it in words but i can feel a much stronger “me” than before after what i’ve experienced! also during this year some of my blurry future become more visible.. i can’t say for sure but i started to see things i couldn’t see in the past years.. now i know what is it to have a dream.. to work hard for a certain aim.. to start looking to the future without being scared.. i still have a long way to realize my dream but at least i have a plan now! i won’t rush things i’ll take it slowly while enjoying my present :) 

i’m gradually changing, my point of view in many things changed dramatically ( to the better of course ).. i’m more mature than last year and the year before, i myself find it hard to believe that i changed this much but it is for good there’s nothing better than being responsible and wise and logical.. i really wish to keep progressing for the best as i’m getting older ^^ 

my resolutions for the new year are :

• Get closer to Allah 
• Study hard so i can graduate 
• Work on my Shortcomings 
• Be more independent and less spoiled 
• Never give up on what i want
• Express myself without being ashamed of the ” real me “
• Communicate more with people
• Try to understand the people around me ( Family,Cousins, Friends ) more 
• Appreciate the value of the smallest things that make me happy 
• Get rid of the negative thoughts and the negative people around me
• Nice trip/vacation in summer *yarb* xD
• Hit my 500th Anime :P

Remember that happiness is everywhere! you can find it if you are willing to, just have some faith.. don’t stop believing don’t give up on people,dreams and hope cause they are the source of the Happiness ;)

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i dont know if i’ll be able to write a new entries in the next 2 weeks but if there’s a chance i’d like to write an entry about ” Best of 2011 “..

i’ll be busy in the new year with the finals.. and there’s a possibility that i’ll spend my winter break in Dubai though nothing confirmed yet.. but i’d like to wish you all a Happy New Year in case i couldn’t show up in the next weeks :)  

Goodbye all.. take care till we meet again! ^^ ~ ♥